I love a good thunderstorm. Actually, I would be sleeping like a baby right now if Cuervo wasn't so scared of them. She's panting and shaking like a maniac. This is a good one. The sky is lit up like tons of exploding fireworks. I love it! ...Oh, damn.... I hope I rolled the windows up on the Jeep. Oh, well, I'm not walking out in this mess to figure out. :) Normally, I love standing in the rain. There's just something so relaxing about it. But, I do need to go to bed, and a cold shower is not one of the best stimulants for sleep. ;)
Ew.... dog drool. LOL.
Oh, well, looks like it's finally settling down. I was going sit down with my new issue of NewType USA, but looks like Cuervo is starting to relax a little, so I can probably head off to bed safely. Last thing I need is a 100 lb dog jumping into the waterbed with me. At least the power stayed on this time. Guess no moronic Atlanta drivers decied to park in a power poll this time. ;)
l8rs.
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Wasted time.
I really should quit trying to maintain all my different internet personalities. All it ends up doing is wasting more and more of my time. I go days without doing anything, and next thing I know I've killed 5 hours trying to catch up. I see now why I quit spending so much time on the internet outside of work. I enjoy my physical and real social life. Admittedly, I revel in it more during the summer months, but that's besides the point.
So, what's the issue? The issue started yesterday. Obviously, my sleeping habits are horrible. So I show up to work "late" all the time. Which, in turn, I end up working late, usually, just so I don't have to pay to get out of the parking deck. So I'm a cheap-ass; big deal. :p~ Newayz, yesterday started off as one of those days. Mostly just becuase I was still tired from the move on Sat (told you I don't do much exercise). Well, instead of my usual evening gaming frenzy, I decide to call it an early evening. I grab the laptop and head to bed to drop a quick blog. Freakin 2am later, the laptop starts running out of power, so I plug it in. Next thing I know, it's 4:30. Great. There's no way I was going to stay awake for another 3 hours; to bed I go. Next I know it's 11:40. Crap! By the end of the day, I've spent most of it on the phone dealing with a sales rep for this new product we need to test. And then there's this other "issue".... grrrrr... I'm so sick of whiny n00bs! This getting pretty consistent about happening at least once every Fall Semester. So anyway, I'm DONE with work around 5, take a break, finally eat my "breakfast". I start cleaning up my music again, later, and while waiting start some laundry and continue surfing the web. 10:30. DAMN! I've killed another 5 hours! So, here I am, sitting in front of the TV, watching "Ah! My Goddess" and bitching here. Well, on the upside, I've only had 3 smokes, today. ;) Ok, between watching Belldandy and Erd getting Kaechi into all kinds of ridiculous situations and babbling here, I feel so much better.
So, as I finish up the final episode... nite!
l8rs.
So, what's the issue? The issue started yesterday. Obviously, my sleeping habits are horrible. So I show up to work "late" all the time. Which, in turn, I end up working late, usually, just so I don't have to pay to get out of the parking deck. So I'm a cheap-ass; big deal. :p~ Newayz, yesterday started off as one of those days. Mostly just becuase I was still tired from the move on Sat (told you I don't do much exercise). Well, instead of my usual evening gaming frenzy, I decide to call it an early evening. I grab the laptop and head to bed to drop a quick blog. Freakin 2am later, the laptop starts running out of power, so I plug it in. Next thing I know, it's 4:30. Great. There's no way I was going to stay awake for another 3 hours; to bed I go. Next I know it's 11:40. Crap! By the end of the day, I've spent most of it on the phone dealing with a sales rep for this new product we need to test. And then there's this other "issue".... grrrrr... I'm so sick of whiny n00bs! This getting pretty consistent about happening at least once every Fall Semester. So anyway, I'm DONE with work around 5, take a break, finally eat my "breakfast". I start cleaning up my music again, later, and while waiting start some laundry and continue surfing the web. 10:30. DAMN! I've killed another 5 hours! So, here I am, sitting in front of the TV, watching "Ah! My Goddess" and bitching here. Well, on the upside, I've only had 3 smokes, today. ;) Ok, between watching Belldandy and Erd getting Kaechi into all kinds of ridiculous situations and babbling here, I feel so much better.
So, as I finish up the final episode... nite!
l8rs.
Quite the charmer...
Heh, so I log into Yahoo! for the first time in a couple of weeks and this is sitting in one of my panels:
Daily Horoscope:
"You are in prime position to charm the pants off people. You can
get your own way. You don't need good looks (though that won't
hurt) all you need is your wonderful manner, the one which works
every time."
HAH! Too funny! Guess it's too bad I don't take these things seriously or my ego would be seriously ballooned with a statement like that. ;)
On the flipside, it's been another one of those Mondays; one where you're just sitting at your desk all day wondering why you're even there. I've been without my coffee for the last two days, and let me tell you... it is taking it's toll. I was a slug all the way through lunch up until I finally went home around 8. Top that off with yesterday's rude re-awakening of muscles I had forgotten that exist. My butt cheeks still feel like I've been doing power-squats for a week. :) Guess that's my body telling me I really should start doing some sort of physical activity other than exercising my thumbs (synchronized game controller streches). Ah, well, it was all worth it to see the semi-smile on my friend's face after the relocation. I say semi since she wasn't feeling all that well. Stubborn-ass. I told her to go lay down; we had it taken care of. Ah, who am I kidding. I probably would have been the same way.
So, I will definately, now, be experiencing my first Con this weekend. This ought to be interesting. It'll, also, help to remind me that no matter how weird I think I am, there are always those that are oh so much weirder. ;) If you haven't figured it out, this weekend is the huge sci-fi DragonCon here in Atlanta. I've been wanting to go for several years, but that's just one experience I've never been too keen on doing alone. Luckily, an old friend from my early college years (who is a much more conditioned Con'er) has moved into the area. She even managed to score us some discounted tix. w00+! Hell, who knows. With all my "charming personality" going on, I may be able to woo me a weirdo. ;) Heheheh... Oh, I'm sure I'll have plenty to ramble on about after going, so be prepared for it either this weekend or next week!
l8rs.
Daily Horoscope:
"You are in prime position to charm the pants off people. You can
get your own way. You don't need good looks (though that won't
hurt) all you need is your wonderful manner, the one which works
every time."
HAH! Too funny! Guess it's too bad I don't take these things seriously or my ego would be seriously ballooned with a statement like that. ;)
On the flipside, it's been another one of those Mondays; one where you're just sitting at your desk all day wondering why you're even there. I've been without my coffee for the last two days, and let me tell you... it is taking it's toll. I was a slug all the way through lunch up until I finally went home around 8. Top that off with yesterday's rude re-awakening of muscles I had forgotten that exist. My butt cheeks still feel like I've been doing power-squats for a week. :) Guess that's my body telling me I really should start doing some sort of physical activity other than exercising my thumbs (synchronized game controller streches). Ah, well, it was all worth it to see the semi-smile on my friend's face after the relocation. I say semi since she wasn't feeling all that well. Stubborn-ass. I told her to go lay down; we had it taken care of. Ah, who am I kidding. I probably would have been the same way.
So, I will definately, now, be experiencing my first Con this weekend. This ought to be interesting. It'll, also, help to remind me that no matter how weird I think I am, there are always those that are oh so much weirder. ;) If you haven't figured it out, this weekend is the huge sci-fi DragonCon here in Atlanta. I've been wanting to go for several years, but that's just one experience I've never been too keen on doing alone. Luckily, an old friend from my early college years (who is a much more conditioned Con'er) has moved into the area. She even managed to score us some discounted tix. w00+! Hell, who knows. With all my "charming personality" going on, I may be able to woo me a weirdo. ;) Heheheh... Oh, I'm sure I'll have plenty to ramble on about after going, so be prepared for it either this weekend or next week!
l8rs.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Still hard to forget...
You know, even after 3 years, it's still hard to let go.
On my way home earlier, I was listening to the local Country station since all my CDs are out of the Jeep (reorganized my CDs - long story; don't feel like going into it). This song came on that I haven't heard before. Tear in your beer kinda thing, which I normally change the station for; yet, I continued to listen. I don't know who sings it or the title of it, but one of the lines goes something like "...when I hear your name, I think of rain." Woah. Those lines hit home.
My last ex and I ended very hatefully and ugly. Mostly all we did was argue the last 8 months of our relationship, plus there was a whole lot of other crappy things going on between us. I won't go into the details cause I don't like remembering them; so, lets just keep it as it did not end well, at all. The thing was, we only "officially" dated for maybe two years, but we spent a lot of time with each other before then. During the good times, I was coming to the realization that she could be the one. She was intelligent, strong willed, independant... she had a lot of the best qualities of what I hope the person to someday spend the rest of my life with should. We even talked about marriage several times. As time passed, we both grew wiser and older, and we changed. As relationships go, you should. Unfortunately, we refused to admit that those changes went in different directions. This is probably what eventually destroyed us, but there's no need to think about and linger on it, now.
As I was listening to the lyrics of this song at the stop light (damn lights take forever to change later at night), I couldn't help thinking that I still miss her and the good times we had. Don't get me wrong, even if the opportunity ever presented itself, I would never get back together with her. We both hurt each other so bad in the end, it's a little hard to forget (and forgive).
I've known since the day we finally seperated that life goes on. Yes, I was bitter; very bitter, in fact. But, should I still feel that way even after this long? Another quizzical (is "quizzical" even a word?) is why do these thoughts and feelings still linger in the back of my mind? They resurface ocassionaly, and I end up feeling lonely then pissed off. I keep telling myself I'm fine being alone. I can do the things I want and don't have to deal with the bitching from someone else about it being wrong or something I shouldn't be doing. Admittedly, if you are with the right one, that shouldn't be an issue. It just so hard dealing with this emotional turmoil... something I've never been good at. It's not that I want that someone around me that I can call "my girlfriend." I've got plenty of those (I have a tendancy of becoming "one of the girls" or the really good guy-friend - which I don't have a problem with and prefer in most cases). ;) Just occasionaly, I get lonely and want that loving touch of someone who honestly and deeply cares. Maybe it's just human nature, maybe it's society. I haven't figured that out, yet. They say, "There's someone out there for everyone." Maybe I'll meet that one, or maybe I already have; who knows. Honestly, I'm not all that worried about it, but why am I still bitter? Why do I still think about her? Why can't I just let go?
Assuredly, most everyone has been through this scenario or something similar at some point in their life. It may make sense. It may just sound like another bad break-up. Thinking of those who know me, who knew her, who knew the situtation... it just all seems so weird... scary, even.
Wow. This has to be a new record or something. 4 posts in the same week. :)
l8rs.
On my way home earlier, I was listening to the local Country station since all my CDs are out of the Jeep (reorganized my CDs - long story; don't feel like going into it). This song came on that I haven't heard before. Tear in your beer kinda thing, which I normally change the station for; yet, I continued to listen. I don't know who sings it or the title of it, but one of the lines goes something like "...when I hear your name, I think of rain." Woah. Those lines hit home.
My last ex and I ended very hatefully and ugly. Mostly all we did was argue the last 8 months of our relationship, plus there was a whole lot of other crappy things going on between us. I won't go into the details cause I don't like remembering them; so, lets just keep it as it did not end well, at all. The thing was, we only "officially" dated for maybe two years, but we spent a lot of time with each other before then. During the good times, I was coming to the realization that she could be the one. She was intelligent, strong willed, independant... she had a lot of the best qualities of what I hope the person to someday spend the rest of my life with should. We even talked about marriage several times. As time passed, we both grew wiser and older, and we changed. As relationships go, you should. Unfortunately, we refused to admit that those changes went in different directions. This is probably what eventually destroyed us, but there's no need to think about and linger on it, now.
As I was listening to the lyrics of this song at the stop light (damn lights take forever to change later at night), I couldn't help thinking that I still miss her and the good times we had. Don't get me wrong, even if the opportunity ever presented itself, I would never get back together with her. We both hurt each other so bad in the end, it's a little hard to forget (and forgive).
I've known since the day we finally seperated that life goes on. Yes, I was bitter; very bitter, in fact. But, should I still feel that way even after this long? Another quizzical (is "quizzical" even a word?) is why do these thoughts and feelings still linger in the back of my mind? They resurface ocassionaly, and I end up feeling lonely then pissed off. I keep telling myself I'm fine being alone. I can do the things I want and don't have to deal with the bitching from someone else about it being wrong or something I shouldn't be doing. Admittedly, if you are with the right one, that shouldn't be an issue. It just so hard dealing with this emotional turmoil... something I've never been good at. It's not that I want that someone around me that I can call "my girlfriend." I've got plenty of those (I have a tendancy of becoming "one of the girls" or the really good guy-friend - which I don't have a problem with and prefer in most cases). ;) Just occasionaly, I get lonely and want that loving touch of someone who honestly and deeply cares. Maybe it's just human nature, maybe it's society. I haven't figured that out, yet. They say, "There's someone out there for everyone." Maybe I'll meet that one, or maybe I already have; who knows. Honestly, I'm not all that worried about it, but why am I still bitter? Why do I still think about her? Why can't I just let go?
Assuredly, most everyone has been through this scenario or something similar at some point in their life. It may make sense. It may just sound like another bad break-up. Thinking of those who know me, who knew her, who knew the situtation... it just all seems so weird... scary, even.
Wow. This has to be a new record or something. 4 posts in the same week. :)
l8rs.
Friday, August 18, 2006
360 GamerCard!
Check it out...
My GamerCard is working now!
I'm really diggin Kameo. DOA4 is just another DOA with more jiggles and prettier graphics. I'm not quite sure what to think of Perfect Dark, yet. Haven't played it for very long. Did I mention that Kameo is really cool?
I'm such a phreak.... ;)
The 360 has turned out to be a worthwhile investment. The Dashboard interface is just schweet with all the different downloads and Live! Arcade. Guess this was their answer to Nintendo's Wii (Revolution) announcment at E3 last year that the entire Nintendo library would be available for download. Thing is, I might be looking into a hard drive upgrade here soon. I'm filling up 14G pretty freakin fast. I do have two complaints, however, and I probably should have researched it a little better before the purchase. Not like it would have changed my mind about buying one or anything. ;) The Xbox (original) emulator that's built in blows ass. I was barely 5 minutes into Halo 2 when the thing locked up faster and harder than Windows ME on a good day. The other issue is I need to figure out how to move my old game saves from the Xbox to the 360. Of course it won't take the old memory cards (go figure). I just haven't Googled a solution, yet.
On another note, I'm having some serious issues with IE and Myspace tonite. Trying to keep these blogs synced is a pain. Need to find an editor. Well, the issues might have something to do with the fact I'm trying to move all my music off the NAS (which isn't of the highest quality). Eh... oh well.
l8rs.
My GamerCard is working now!
I'm really diggin Kameo. DOA4 is just another DOA with more jiggles and prettier graphics. I'm not quite sure what to think of Perfect Dark, yet. Haven't played it for very long. Did I mention that Kameo is really cool?
I'm such a phreak.... ;)
The 360 has turned out to be a worthwhile investment. The Dashboard interface is just schweet with all the different downloads and Live! Arcade. Guess this was their answer to Nintendo's Wii (Revolution) announcment at E3 last year that the entire Nintendo library would be available for download. Thing is, I might be looking into a hard drive upgrade here soon. I'm filling up 14G pretty freakin fast. I do have two complaints, however, and I probably should have researched it a little better before the purchase. Not like it would have changed my mind about buying one or anything. ;) The Xbox (original) emulator that's built in blows ass. I was barely 5 minutes into Halo 2 when the thing locked up faster and harder than Windows ME on a good day. The other issue is I need to figure out how to move my old game saves from the Xbox to the 360. Of course it won't take the old memory cards (go figure). I just haven't Googled a solution, yet.
On another note, I'm having some serious issues with IE and Myspace tonite. Trying to keep these blogs synced is a pain. Need to find an editor. Well, the issues might have something to do with the fact I'm trying to move all my music off the NAS (which isn't of the highest quality). Eh... oh well.
l8rs.
ramblings
Honestly, not a whole lot going on here these days. I'm helping a friend move. I forgot how much work is involved in packing since I've actually managed to stay put for longer than a year. :) Work is getting back to being hectic. I have to have 3 servers online before I go home tomorrow, and one of them has to be done before noon. Semester starts next week, so for the next month, life is just not fun anymore. I really need to quit spending money on things I don't need. I'm already broke for the month... I still have another 2 weeks and 3 more bills to pay.
Here's a little something that just popped into my head earlier this month in the wee hours of the AM. Just thought I'd share:
Sultry summer humidity
Cicadias chirping in the evening
Cool salty breeze
No longer the lifeguard to enjoy
Sticky, muggy asphalt
Flourescent air-conditioned offices
Whirring beeping cluster arrays
Forever the computer whiz
Bright lights, big city
Longing for the sound of the ocean
Will I ever be able to return?
Here I will not remain
I'm no poet, so don't ask me what iambic pentameter hiku format it follows, cause I have no idea. ;) I just thought it sounded cool. ;)
l8rs.
Here's a little something that just popped into my head earlier this month in the wee hours of the AM. Just thought I'd share:
Sultry summer humidity
Cicadias chirping in the evening
Cool salty breeze
No longer the lifeguard to enjoy
Sticky, muggy asphalt
Flourescent air-conditioned offices
Whirring beeping cluster arrays
Forever the computer whiz
Bright lights, big city
Longing for the sound of the ocean
Will I ever be able to return?
Here I will not remain
I'm no poet, so don't ask me what iambic pentameter hiku format it follows, cause I have no idea. ;) I just thought it sounded cool. ;)
l8rs.
Monday, August 07, 2006
errrgh... idiota
I think I have finally come to admit I am officially blind. I try to get away with not having to wear my glasses as much as possible, but once the sun sets I usually end up trading my Oakley's for my "eyes". Tonight, however, I wasn't able to do that as freely as I normally am. I've had a hard time trying to see the computer screen, and I'm not even going to bother trying to watch TV. I can't frikin' see!
Scenario: There's a reason I tell people, "Clean out your pockets before you get in the Jeep." During the summer, the doors are off and the top is usually down. Hats can be lost and things can fall out quite easily. Normally, I'm wearing a pair of cargos, so I don't have to worry about loosing anything I value. Today was one of those days I wasn't outfitted correctly, however. After about 20 minutes of cruzin' back from the mall, I realize, "Oh, shit; where is my Balistics case?" Yup, it's somewhere out on the superhighway of traffic hell. I wasn't even about to turn around and go look for it. At least I had my shades on; I'd have been more pissed if those were lost instead. Now, due to my severe distrust of modern medicine (and the fact that I hardly ever get sick), I tend to avoid doctor's offices and the likes. After I get home, I'm tearing the apartment apart looking for my last CLRX prescription. I'm thinking, ok, I can order some comtacts from 1-800 Contacts, schweet. Been meaning to do that for years anyway. I finally found it, but it's dated 2002 with an expiration of 1 year. Great. Well, the order went through (damn next day shipping cost just as much as the contacts themselves), but they have to verify with "your doctor" before shipping. Well, hopefully, it'll work, and I won't have to try to find an optomologist that supports my insurance AND can accept an appointment, like, immediately.
So why was I insane enough to go to the mall on Tax-Free weekend to begin with? Yeah; I thought it would be a good idea to go get some new shirts for work because of all the sales. I got the shirts. Even found a pair of jeans (which is extremely rare). Oh, well. This just goes to prove I really don't belong at the mall. Actually, the only thing I like about malls is people watching. Go sit in the food court sometime and just observe/evesdrop. You'll laugh your ass off for hours.
On a good note (sorta), I finally put a 360 on order. My projector has started having fits again and rather than try messing with it, I ordered a new one. Of course all this was possible only because I got approved for a Best Buy card. :) At least I know now that my credit is not as foobarred as I thought. Of course, I'll be paying for it for the next year(+) but, we have to have our toys, right? And besides, IT's AN XBOX 360!! LOL. Just have to wait 2 weeks for everything to come in. Yes, I did say I was going to wait, but I also found out Gears of War and Halo 3 are scheduled for relase in mid-November. A day apart, actually. There goes my social life till Christmas. ;)
Well, it's another one of those late niters, so I better get off to bed if I want to get into work at a decent hour tomorrow (today).
l8rs.
Scenario: There's a reason I tell people, "Clean out your pockets before you get in the Jeep." During the summer, the doors are off and the top is usually down. Hats can be lost and things can fall out quite easily. Normally, I'm wearing a pair of cargos, so I don't have to worry about loosing anything I value. Today was one of those days I wasn't outfitted correctly, however. After about 20 minutes of cruzin' back from the mall, I realize, "Oh, shit; where is my Balistics case?" Yup, it's somewhere out on the superhighway of traffic hell. I wasn't even about to turn around and go look for it. At least I had my shades on; I'd have been more pissed if those were lost instead. Now, due to my severe distrust of modern medicine (and the fact that I hardly ever get sick), I tend to avoid doctor's offices and the likes. After I get home, I'm tearing the apartment apart looking for my last CLRX prescription. I'm thinking, ok, I can order some comtacts from 1-800 Contacts, schweet. Been meaning to do that for years anyway. I finally found it, but it's dated 2002 with an expiration of 1 year. Great. Well, the order went through (damn next day shipping cost just as much as the contacts themselves), but they have to verify with "your doctor" before shipping. Well, hopefully, it'll work, and I won't have to try to find an optomologist that supports my insurance AND can accept an appointment, like, immediately.
So why was I insane enough to go to the mall on Tax-Free weekend to begin with? Yeah; I thought it would be a good idea to go get some new shirts for work because of all the sales. I got the shirts. Even found a pair of jeans (which is extremely rare). Oh, well. This just goes to prove I really don't belong at the mall. Actually, the only thing I like about malls is people watching. Go sit in the food court sometime and just observe/evesdrop. You'll laugh your ass off for hours.
On a good note (sorta), I finally put a 360 on order. My projector has started having fits again and rather than try messing with it, I ordered a new one. Of course all this was possible only because I got approved for a Best Buy card. :) At least I know now that my credit is not as foobarred as I thought. Of course, I'll be paying for it for the next year(+) but, we have to have our toys, right? And besides, IT's AN XBOX 360!! LOL. Just have to wait 2 weeks for everything to come in. Yes, I did say I was going to wait, but I also found out Gears of War and Halo 3 are scheduled for relase in mid-November. A day apart, actually. There goes my social life till Christmas. ;)
Well, it's another one of those late niters, so I better get off to bed if I want to get into work at a decent hour tomorrow (today).
l8rs.
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