Soul Searching

Yeah, I just really don't feel like working today. I've got about another hour before I have to meet with a prof. to fix his Outlook issues. I haven't done much of anything other than read email all morning, so far.

NEWayz....

So something sparked in me today that seems to have sent me on sort of a soul searching mission, again. Anyone who knows me knows I'm so bored with my job, and I'm getting to the point of hating it... again. I've got a feeling of what triggered this soul searching is the course of events from the last 2 days (mostly yesterday).

Background:
I've been throwing around the idea of finally putting together a web comic. Now, I'm no writer, and my artistic abilities are limited, at best. However, being you are your own worst critic, most of my friends tell me I have a talent for drawing. Ideas have been popping into my head for about the last 6 months for story lines, etc., but I've never written them down. The ideas usually come just after I've crawled into bed or on the short rail trip home from work. So far, I've titled it, written the intro, have a general idea of the characters, and stick-figured the panels (about 4 or 5). I haven't done any rough sketching, yet, but I'll probably start soon. I'm starting to push myself more to follow through with this... mostly to keep my sanity. I work with computers all day long; then, I go home and mess around with them some more. I'm to the point I'm almost burnt out. ...Who am I kidding, I am burnt out. ;)

Cause:
Yesterday, my long time post-high school friend got stranded in Atlanta because of flight problems and weather. Up until about a year ago, we hadn't talked for almost 10 years. These days, we talk occasionally, but I have my life, he has his. So, he was headed out to Vegas to Showcase his newly found inspiration to play and write again (music) and meet with a couple of record companies. He's finally following his dream of sharing his music (quick plug, check out http://www.myspace.com/justnoah). I took the day off work, and we hung out (which we haven't had the time to do in years). Finally seeing his change in personality (which I already knew about) and his enthusiasm about his music (which I haven't seen in a long time) got me thinking. Maybe I really do need to follow through with this comic... not for recognition, or for stature, or to compete with the other ones I read religiously, but just for me. I'm just sticking out my job because it pays the bills. I want something new. Maybe this is that something new that I need.

Effect:
We'll see. Do I really follow through, or do I just half-a$$ it like I've done most everything in my personal life lately? I'll update here as it progresses.


3nj0i!